So I was thinking about those of you who have a relationship with Christ, yet don’t attend church, what is your reason(s) for doing so?
A few years ago, that was me. And I can clearly remember my reason. It was because I thought that the churches I was visiting were not strong enough to deal with the situations that my family and I were going through.
I was so tired of the “hunky-dory” messages! I was hungry for messages with real substance to help me learn and grow. I was wanting to fellowship with people who were not afraid of their battle scars; to hear how the Lord got them through their rough times.
But instead I felt isolated and unworthy.
The sudden separation and pending divorce from my husband, among other things my kids and I were dealing with, sent me into a depression, which lasted for 2 years. Sleeping was difficult, and greying out of beef wad a struggle. Putting on my “happy face” got tiring, too. I would attend church, but only when my kids were performing. (I really felt the presence of the Lord during those services.)
However I had big plans. My plans were to get a car and go back to the church wet used to attend years before. But it seemed that I was stuck going to a church that was conveniently 3 minutes down the street. That was the summer of 2010.
Fast forward to December 2, 2011, @ 2:00 p.m., I clearly heard the Holy Spirit tell me that i was being called to attend this church they i wanted nothing to do with. And I instantly knew that I was going on assignment: to be a prayer warrior for the pastor and the leadership.
Since then, it’s been a rollercoaster ride. But I see God using me. Working with the kids and being on the Worship Team helps keep me sane. (Singing and kids-the best part of me.)
In writing this today, it’s occurring to me that i allowed other people’s judgements about me to take root. I didn’t have to allow ANYONE to make me feel unworthy. Especially if i had been stronger in the Lord and sure off who i am in HIM.
I also understand that some people in church leadership stress not selling God in all aspects, and are being governed by their own mindsets. I have to remember that I am serving God not man. (Yes, we are human. And that’s the reason why we should keep our church leadership in our prayers on a regular basis.)