Category Archives: Faith
Spiritual Masters Class
…the Spirit requires not only a service of work but also a service of waiting.
When I cannot understand my Father’s leading,
And it seems to be but hard and cruel fate,
Still I hear that gentle whisper ever pleading,
God is working, God is faithful, ONLY WAIT.
For the past couple of days, I have had a very strong sense that I should be sharing this particular passage-I don’t know exactly why.
What I do know is that when we chose to embark on the Journey that Lord has set aside for us, it will seem foolish to others; ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU KNOW DEEP DOWN THAT YOU ARE BEING INSTRUCTED TO WAIT. To some people around you, it will look as if you are lazy and using the Lord as an excuse to be so, when in fact you are in a deeper relationship with Our Father than you were before.
I myself have been on a this Journey for a couple of years now, and it has intensified over the past 12 months. Seriously, it feels as if I have been in a Spiritual Masters Class where the instructor is Jesus himself, and the lesson I have been learning is distinguishing HIS VOICE from others, distinguishing HIS WILL from what society thinks is acceptable. WAITING ON THE LORD, A LAMP UNTO MY FEET AND A LIGHT UNTO MY PATH, are the ONLY things being taught at this time.
To be honest, the past weeks, I had been feeling so stagnant and it seemed that my zeal was gone. But I kept hearing a resounding, “Do you trust ME?” Ultimately, yes I do, otherwise I wouldn’t have completely surrendered my entire life to HIM, including my financial situation. (A story for another time.) Along with the deepening relationship with the Lord comes an alienation because the ones closest to you, the ones who would normally be your cheerleaders, will not find reason to cheer. And I’m learning not to take it personally because “we wrestle not against flesh and blood”, it’s a spirit and heart thing.
So, take courage and be confident that Our Father has you, knows the needs you have. And as HE told me many months ago, “Take care of MY business, I’ll take care of your business.” You may not be a millionaire yet, and obeying HIM may be an absolute struggle sometimes. Just remember, “obedience is better than sacrifice.” HE never puts you in a situation that HE can’t handle. Just WAIT, “BE STILL and know that I’m God.” It won’t be difficult forever.
You’re not lazy because you have chosen to have God’s PERFECT WILL in your life. Quite the opposite because you, indeed, ARE DOING something when you ARE BEING still, WAITING for His voice. And with that, believe it or not, you are learning to have “PEACE THAT SURPASSES ALL UNDERSTANDING.”
Simple Reminder
You’re not going through it alone. Others are praying for you and WITH you, people you may not even know. At just the right moment, the Lord will tell someone to pray for you by having a picture of your face in their mind-for just a small moment.
Let this be a reminder of just how much Our Father in Heaven cares for you. 
My Youngest
From out of the darkness, she was handed to me.
By the strongest of hands, she was carried,
In Hands of Heaven which held out the precious little bundle for me to kiss,
in the vision I will, for a lifetime, carry.
From out of the darkness, she was handed to me.
Twenty-four hours before her official debut
Not knowing what the outcome would be,
I was gripped with anxiety and fear – I prayed.
From out of the darkness, she was handed to me.
Not yet born, but born from Heaven,
With more than a mere sweet disposition!
Anointed with joy and love, she was; growing in sensitivity, as if Heaven itself lived inside her.
From out of the darkness, she was handed to me.
By the strongest of hands, she has been carried,
By the Grace of God, she has grown
Into the most beautiful young lady I have ever known.
From out of the darkness, she has been given to me.
By the strongest of hands, she has been carried,
With a Light that shines so brightly in her heart and in her eyes,
She is now ready to make the Journey God has set aside.
From out of the darkness, I have seen her rise…
Did I Really Let Him Down, or Did My Emotions Take Over?
I’m ashamed to admit this:
I feel as though I let God down by not teaching my class tonight and I love my Missionettes class! And for some reason, I’ve become so disenchanted with the whole process. To be honest, I know what the reason is. A few weeks ago, I had the honor of delivering an “invitation” message, at a Mother’s Day Tea. As I was sharing part of my testimony, a fellow member raised her voice and was very angry at the fact that I was saying, “it’s not about praying to Mary, it’s about Jesus.”
Yes, immediately the Holy Spirit reminded me of the verse in Ephesians chapter 6, “…for we wrestle not against flesh and blood…”; yet it did quite a number on me. My spirit felt so defeated and I couldn’t shake it and there are still lingering affects.
So, why the disenchantment? There’s a pattern of “works”. Parents, and by that I mean mothers, more interested in how many badges their daughters are receiving, but not caring about THE WORD that is being placed in them. It’s a mentality of, “as long as I’m doing church, I’m OK.” And that’s so wrong, at least I feel it is.
When I first started with the group, in August, I remember agonizing over saying yes or not. I clearly remember hearing the Lord tell me, “Take care of MY BUSINESS, I’LL take care of your business.” And that’s why I feel I’ve let HIM down, by not showing up tonight. And I’ve felt this way for the past few weeks because that fire for the class is gone. Although, my love for the girls is very strong.
A few moments before I started to type this out, I was reminded of these verses:
…and let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. {Galatians 6:9}
…therefore, my beloved brethren, be ye stedfast, unmoveable, always abounding in the work of the Lord, forasmuch as ye know that your labour is not in vain in the Lord. {1Corintians 15:45}
No ministry comes easily, and the anointing for it comes with a price. The enemy doesn’t want the Kingdom of God to expand. And he comes after intercessors with equal amounts of force. I’ve been lead to teach this class as I taught my own children:
JESUS-period!
And the other basics, such as, loving one another, kindness, praying for one another, etc.
I’ve heard it said that I’m a “front liner”. And in battle, they’re the first ones to get hit.
While writing this, the thought occurred to me that it’s the enemy who has been trying to make me think that I’ve let the Lord down because “he knows his days are numbered.”
Therefore, the question remains, do I still want it?
Yes! Wholeheartedly yes!
