I think much about how Abraham must have felt he he had to let Hagar and Ishmael go. I think at some point we have those moments. And did Hagar see it coming? Having to be cast out? We have those moments too, being blind-sided. The two of them had a connection through Ishmael. Were there strong feelings between the two of them? Was this an agonizing decision for Abraham? I know Hagar must have been deeply wounded in her spirit. For years she and Abraham had a certain relationship that he did not have with his own wife. A connection was made, but in order to have GOD’s best, to be in covenant with GOD so that GOD would keep HIS part of the PROMISE, Abraham had to let her go, and I know that hurt deeply because let’s face it! It wasn’t her fault Abraham messed up, but God heard Hagar’s cry in the wilderness. She was not comfortless, although it certainly seemed that way.(Gen21:1-21) ; BUT OH! WE ARE NOT ALONE NOR ARE WE FORGOTTEN IN OUR TIMES OF DEEPEST SORROW. FOR, OUR CRIES ARE HEARD AND ANSWERED; just like OUR FATHER sent an angel to speak and minister to Hagar in the wilderness, so, HE does the same for us. Something will be said, or something done to remind us that we are most assuredly NOT ALONE. As Jesus said: “…I will pray the Father and shall give you another COMFORTER the he may abide with you forever…I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you…but the COMFORTER (sent in Jesus’ name) shall teach you all things, and bring to your rememberance whatsoever I have said to you….” John 14: 16-26
We parents find it difficult to see our children as young adults sometimes. And I have to remind myself that sometimes they need to make mistakes on their own, at certain times. Then there are the times, quite often, when I find myself viewing them as my little ones; that probably will not stop. More so now then when they were little, we all need to be patient with each other; our kids need to be patient with us too, because it’s difficult seeing our kids spreading their wings, “what if they get hurt”, etc. This stage of parenting, nobody can prepare you for. I’m on my knees more now because, they are out in the world, and I have to trust that the seeds planted in them as children will spring up. It’s amazing to see them grow into such wonderful adults, although, it goes without saying, they are and forever will be MY LITTLE ONES.
I just want to take the time to say hello to all the friends of this blog, and hello again to all new friends. Your feed back, comments, etc. is so appreciated. Hope all of you enjoy your weekend. I encourage you all to create wonderful memories this weekend. The smallest of activities can make the most lasting of memories. GOD BLESS EVERY SINGLE ONE YOU
(don’t know exactly where this will go, so bear with me.)
Rejection; at some point, most of us experience it. Why do we feel the need to hide when facing difficult emotional problems? Being a Christian doesn’t make you/us impervious to any pain, sorrow or problem. So why do we pretend it’s not there; the pain of being/feeling rejected? Do we think that others will look upon us and see something unholy or hypecritical in us?
I don’t care who you are, the fact remains that we all have a need to be/feel loved, wanted and accepted. (Maybe there are some Christians out there who are under the impression that we are not supposed to experience ANY TYPE of problem whatsoever. And that is just not the case. For, as long as we are on this earth, we will experience things that will “build our character”, as some like to phrase it.) And it hurts deeply when we are not loved in return.
There are some, however, who want a deeper, more intimate relationship with JESUS. So, in these cases, does HE allow us to experience what HE went through while on earth: ridicule, betrayal, lied about and rejected in order that we can be more like HIM when our soul and spirit cry out to be relieved of that pain, and be filled with HIM? Hmmm. Maybe.
There is nothing shameful about battle scars, even those emotional scars that we have, and THOSE scars can been seen in your eyesThere’s alot to be said about battle scars. A soldier can learn more from a General who has been in combat, than he can from a “pencil pusher.”
Yes wanting a closer relationship with JESUS, more intimate and anointed, does have its price that some are not willing to pay. To be lied to and rejected by loved ones, the closet people to you, may seem trivial compared to most problems people are facing these days. But a broken bone can mend more easily than a broken heart/spirit.
And being single again is not easy, when that decision was not yours, and when you mentality is “marriage is forever.” Will I get married again and grow old with someone? Only the FATHER knows. For now I can say that I am learning to be content. I wish it would be “suddenly content”, but not in this case. Accepting this new situation is for me, what a recovering alcoholic goes through, one day, one moment at a time. But not all days are as this day was. These low moments are few. But it’s in these low moments that I feel closer to JESUS. And I can sense HIS PRESENCE like a sweet, warm blanket.
I just want to take the time to say Hi to all the “friends of the blog”, as I like to call you. BIG THANK YOU to all of you who have been reading the posts. Whether you choose to follow, or just come by to browse, I appreciate every single one of you. HAVE A GREAT DAY, EVERYONE!
This morning was one of the sweetest mornings that I have had in quiet some time. Not too long ago, I posted something entitled “cry out”, didn’t think much of it at the time it was written. That used to be something I would do all the time…sing my prayers.
Anyway, this morning was a powerful and precious experience. It was as if, while *worshiping, that I was reunited with my LOVER, whom I have not seen in a very very long time. So spiritual, emotional, and lovely; and I knew that I was being filled with HIS SPIRIT, the HOLY SPIRIT again, that my “cry” was heard, and was now being responded to. I didn’t realize that I had been MISSING MY SAVIOR as much as I had, until I noticed my reaction. As if stepping outside my self looking in on the experience, it was like being in the airport receiving your (my) long-lost lover…seriously, that is the only way to describe it.
I had been dry for a long time because I allowed situations to get the better of me in that area. And just as I had started writing about it, the computer went crazy, and all that had been started was lost. And for some reason that put me in a “funk” because I so wanted to share the experience and encourage someone in the LORD then and there, but that was not to be the case; and that sweet feeling seemed to have lifted, and that disappointed me more than the computer thing.
So, the day went on, and I was fighting to get “my inspiration” back. Then “it hit me”, something I learned a long time ago, but got reminded of, a Christian, no matter a “newbie” or “oldie” in his/her walk, is supposed to be “filled” daily, a freshly “filled”, not relying on past encounters, not relying on a past anointing. And also, the thought came to me, “maybe my time to be writing is not during the day, but later in the evening. Really, our FATHER knows exactly who is in need and what all our needs are. It’s all HIS timing, at least that’s the way it is supposed to be. Words cannot describe, fully, how important to me being in JESUS’ presence is. Really, tasting of HIM again, was enough to remind me that HE IS the healthiest addiction anyone could have; like the old song goes...”oh how HE loves you and me…”