How it all came about…
I remember the day that this blog came to being. I had been separated for about a year and was going through the motions of the day-like a zombie-trying not to reminisce for fear of tears. It was the middle of the afternoon and I distinctly hear the word blog. I had shared my testimony in a women’s group on FB. To my surprise, I was invited to do an additional feature piece about myself. The thought you don’t have anything worth saying crept in but I ignored it and submitted what I thought was an adequate bio. There was an overwhelming response to what I shared because apparently it struck a chord with other women who had gone through what I was currently going through at the time. All I did was be myself and the Lord took care of the rest.
A few days later, the Lord placed the idea of doing a blog. Fluffing it off, I continued with cleaning the house but that word wouldn’t leave me alone to the point I had to stop and go to my laptop to google search what a blog was. Seriously. I had no bloody idea what a blog was. (What I DID know was that I was being lead by the Lord.) By this time my youngest arrived home from school. I asked her what a blog was.
“Your diary entries online,” was her response. By her tone I could tell that she felt the need to really break it down in order for me to “get it.” 🙂 With that, I did another search for blogging sites and landed her.
In those days prior to starting this blog, depression had taken over-it was ugly and I wasn’t the best company. I had my good days and bad days but there were days when I didn’t get out of my pj’s. My faith in Christ was there yet I had allowed the separation (and other issues branching from that) to take over. So I knew the Lord was leading me out of that pit and into His plan and purpose for me. This was going to be the place for me to share His love for the ones Jesus died on the cross for. Not only that, but this was going to be the place where my Lord was going to reintroduce me to His beautiful creation-ME.
I was healed from that depression after the first few posts. How do I know, my thought patterns concerning myself suddenly changed, my outlook suddenly changed and my focus went back to the Lord as opposed to allowing myself to slip away. In short, my “fight” returned to me. 🙂
Deep down, there was a sense I had that this blog was supposed to be real and not concerned with fluff. But for a while I became very readership and numbers conscious. I left my first love, so-to-speak. But the Lord gave me a gently stern reminder that it’s about His will and not my own. So this blog will be about sharing His love for us, my silly goofy kiddos, and anything else that He leads me to share. I’ll even throw in a photo or two.
Being a Christian isn’t boring. I guess that’s what this blog is also about-showcasing that living for Jesus is fun. Yes we go through things-that’s life. But being a Christian doesn’t mean being lifeless. We have more life and a new reason to have fun. Know what I mean?
Other that Jesus, family is everything to me. My kids are my jewels and I can’t imagine life without them! Becoming a mom has been the most challenging, stressful, beautiful and rewarding thing in my life.